Oh man! I have mixed feelings about this semester and I don't know why but I feel like crying right now. I'm really gonna miss Basic Japanese class; it's just so awesome being with the whole class!
Here's a confession and I know that I should have kept this to myself or in my sixth diary (yes, six diaries, I have them since I was in elementary school), but I feel like writing something on my blog since final exam is over for me and I'm done with this semester I decide to share this online. For the past two years, I had no friends at all. Literally. The only friends I had were from church and even though I got to meet up with them like every weekend, I still felt lonely and depressed. I didn't get to talk much and all I did for the past two years was sitting in a corner of the cafeteria and glue my eyes on my laptop screen. And a friend in Basic Japanese class reminded me of this because I was like him, avoiding from socializing and having a hard time with my courses. I took four courses in the beginning of my college years and they treated me like hell. And then, on my second year, I decided to take it slow and register for three courses every semester. But then, I still was a little depressed because I couldn't find anyone to talk to or to laugh with. And that made me secretly hate Douglas College because I always thought that no one was there for me.
But then, as soon as I took Japanese classes this year, something changed within me like a flower that was freshly blossomed. I got to finally make new friends and I was like all laid back and relaxed and laughing every time I practiced conversation with them. They thought that I was crazy but that's just me, I like to laugh. It helps me to be healed from depression and from thinking about my bullied at schools' past. And then, as my journey in learning this awesome language continued this past semester, I grew to love the language even more and I got to love the whole class even the instructors. It was normal to students for being strangers at first and friends in the end, but to me, it's special to become friends with the whole class and even though I don't know a lot about them but I love hanging out with them and practicing Japanese with them. Surprisingly, it had been a while since I get close to colleagues or even instructors. I've never thought of myself laughing a lot and helping them with their homework and don't mind them treating me like a walking dictionary (surprisingly I like being a walking dictionary XD).
Now that the class is over, I should be happy but my heart literally felt heavy as I rode the community bus home a few hours ago. I seriously wanted to sob like it was graduation day. I texted a friend about this and she said something like this "Learning a language is different from other courses, We had to talk a lot but we feel connected." I don't know if it's just me, but I did cry when I was cutting an onion for dinner tonight XD. It wasn't only the onion, it was my sadness of missing the class. And not only that I'll miss this class, but I'll graduate next semester and I can't believe I say this but I'll miss Douglas College because of this class!
I'll probably talk more about this but I'm gonna stop here because I have a list of things to do this winter break. Just a quick update here: I'll be writing a sequel to my fiction "Words Entwined", plus a new memoir chapter, hopefully a new chapter of my novel series The Magic Mimosa Plant, one or two new poems, a couple of new DIY arts and crafts projects on my Arts' Realm, and maybe a new film review on Big Hero 6...or maybe Dolphin Tale 2. Oh! And I just started this new cool website called DeviantArt where I'll be posting old and new pictures of drawings, DIY projects, and photographs of beautiful scenery. If you're interested, click on this link http://tmmpmich.deviantart.com/ and "favourite" my artwork for support!
So,,,for tonight, I'll be watching an episode of one of my favourite TV shows The Carrie Diaries and also Kurt Hugo Schneider's College Musical the Movie! And then for the rest of the month, I'll probably be volunteering for a couple of Christmas events with SHARE family and community services, plus hopefully seeing more of my awesome new friends.
See if you can read Japanese everyone =P
今学期は一番たのしくて、おもしろくて、大好きです！わたしのあたらしいともだちはわすらないです！
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